Like I had to call in sick to work for the FIRST TIME EVER today and I’ve honestly been freaking the fuck out over it like what am I going to say to people tomorrow and what if someone saw me when I went out for a little walk + tea and assumes I was faking and now i’m going to get fired and never find another job in the makeup industry again and end up flipping burgers or some other trash job for the rest of my life urghhhhhh
NOT TO MENTION the person who answered the phone today wasn’t exactly polite about it so now I have added worry of wtf did she say to the manager and omg help.
I just can’t deal, next time i’m going in and if I puke on someone/pass out/die they’ll just have to deal with that I guess :/ Like I was legit ready to send my mom in there so she could like ‘casually mention’ to them that I was sick and felt like crap etc but then I remembered that I’m an adult now and that’s just weird and awkward and arghhh
why can’t I do normal people things.
"I was born in the wrong time period," I cry. "Take me back to revolutionary France so I can have someone beheaded just by accusing them of being anti-revolution."